Necessity is the mother of Invention!!

I never I can travel alone for long distances until I had to travel for the first time when I was very much younger.

I never knew I can do many things that a guy would do, until I had to do them as my brother was staying away from home.

I never knew I can roam around alone on roads at 3 AM in the morning until there was an obligation to pass on emergency information.

I never knew I can say that it’s right though it is wrong, until I had to, otherwise I would be fired out from my job.:-)

I never knew I can be strong enough to take care of the troubles, until I had to alone take care of my mom when she was seriously ill.

I never knew I can forgive someone who hurt me until I had to do so because that person’s presence is necessity in my life.

I never knew I can fake my smile until I had to travel with a fellow passenger who was talking non-stop non sense :-(

I never knew I can fight for a friend until I had to fight with my mom because I need my friend.

I never knew I can enjoy myself even I am alone, until I had to roam around in NY as I could not have a company.

I never knew I can alone face my grief until I had to do so because I cannot share it with anybody.

I never knew I can show my frustration on some one until I had to do so because being relieved from it was my necessity.

I never knew I can control my anger until I had to do so as I cannot afford to buy a new laptop if I break it :-)

I never knew I can control my desires, until I had to do so, because my self-respect is more necessary.

I never knew I can go for an extra mile, until I had to do so, because my friend‘s need is my need.


I never knew I can smile even I was in deep upset mood until I saw a handsome guy on whom I had a crush :-)

“Nothing has more strength than necessity. It knows no law except to conquer”

chinnu gaDu.....application form!!

Many of you know, I have a little nephew, Sriniket, whom I fondly call as chinnu.
He is my brother’s three and half years old son.

Well, this guy is supposed to join the school in June next year.
His parents started the preparations from last 2 months!!
This was my first shock….to join a school after almost a year; they had to start the back ground work now!!

The research which school to go was started very much earlier, and his parents opted for finally for one of the 2, 3 schools near by to my house.

The story started then….!!

They made calls time to time to the first preferred school to find out when the applications will be distributed.

My brother never gets satisfied with the attempts we do for anything…this time too he made me , and himself, personally go to the school and find out the details again!!
Every time they said that it would be by September end, October 1st week.

This happened a couple of times, and finally last friday my sister in law called up home (she is currently out of station) and said the applications were already distributed and now it was closed!!

I was seriously working on something at office, my mother called me up.
Before I said hello, she started talking in a tension filled tone.
I was a little bit worried that something serious happened.

Trying to figure out what it could be, I asked for the matter.
In a very disappointment voice, she told me “Uma , you know, vodina called now, the applications at NPS were OVER, I am all worried what to do next”

I was a little confused what was OVER and what she was worried about.
I took a pause and digested the matter, and said is it?

Then she started again…"yes, its over, how lazy you people are, this week you both didn’t enquire about it, you guys are always like this, never do a thing in time, no seriousness" …and it continued!!

I tried interrupting her saying “But amma, last week only we spoke to them and they said they will give in Nov 1st week….”
She did not listen to me, but continued with her big disappointment….” I don’t know what you guys did, now those are OVER, your brother went to the school now to find out, but I am not sure if he gets it or not, I am very much worried what to do now…”
I did not know how to react.
After a few words of exchange, I told her not to worry as we find the alternative and kept the phone!!

Boy, she did not worried this much when my brother did not get his passport even before 2 days of his first onsite assignment!!

Later on Sunday morning, my brother told me that Monday morning we both will have to go to 2 different schools separately and get the application form.
He told me specifically that the school opens at 8:30AM and I should be there at 8 AM!!

And yeah, this is the only day they give the application form and that too limited!!

Oh…I am going to get a very important thing in my life…sorry, chinnu’s life!!

Before I went to sleep, my mom asked me if I set my alarm at right time….I keep the alarm every day, but she never bothered till then.
She warned me twice that I should not be lazy and get up as soon as the alarm rings.

Finally, I got up, finished gym a little early, to get ready by 8AM, and was all in hurry to reach the school in time.
Hey…I reached there by 8:10AM.

Now the most interesting part….by the time I reached, the parking was full and I had to search a little to park and finally got it!!

I parked and walked towards the school and saw a very big queue with all elders standing!!

I thought that there might be something else going on in the same area and so the queue.

I asked the security guard where to go to get the application form.
Then received another shock….he showed me the queue and asked me to stand there.
I was puzzled.. and asked again the same question.
Then he said again that the queue is meant for the same.

God…such a long queue, people were standing with their laptops, back packs, lunch boxes…. a hi-fi queue :-)

With a shocking expression on my face I went to the end of the queue and stood there After a few minutes, the queue grew longer and longer…!!

The people who pass by were asking what this queue is for, and the person behind me with so much of excitement answered “for the application form for LKG”.
By then I could not stop my giggling and started laughing loudly.
Every body started at me as if I am insulting somebody.

I stood patiently in the queue, wondering how my mother used to receive parents with warm welcome, never made them to wait though they came at a very odd time (we have our own school and my mother used to run it till some time back).

The people in queue were talking with each other about the schools they already applied, worried if their kid gets the seat, what is the last date to apply etc etc.

The lady in front of me was calling her colleague and enquiring if there is any urgent issue to be solved, as she would be late to office because she came to get the application for her kid.

Some people were replacing the persons already in queue to share the “long waiting”….so much of planning :-)

All are excited and waiting eagerly when the gate will be opened.
Finally the gate was opened at 9 AM, and we are allowed to go inside.
Then our queue was separated into two, one for the nursery and one for LKG admissions.

I wondered for a while which queue I should take…but concluded that it should be LKG, as chinnu is already 3.5 yrs old :-)

Once we are in right queue, they made us to enter our visit details in a register.
By that time it was 9:15 AM.

And now the queue moved to reception area!!

The persons in the front were going inside, coming out after 10 minutes with the application form in hand, with all pride in their faces, while others looking at them with a little disappointed thought that “I could have come a little early”.

They were enquired about the procedure, how much it costs, if the applications are still available etc etc.
I remembered the interview sessions when I was searching for a job!!

After another half an hour wait, I could go inside and went to the counter.
The lady asked me Chinnu’s DOB, when I told 2006, she was with a satisfied smile that I was in a right queue.

She asked me to enter his details in a register and I did it!!

After a few words exchange I could get the application form and came out with a great relief…….looked at my watch and found that the time was already 10:30 AM.

I started running from there calculating in the mind till how late I should stay in office to complete 9.15 hours :-(

Let’s wait and watch for the day when he will be admitted to school :-)

"kids... are the tough guys to bring up"

Kotta Bangaru lokam…maaku kaavali sontham!!

Have you ever heard this song?
I listen to it when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am crying, when some one hurt me!!

I just feel this song is a reflection of my so called “fairy” world!!
Every line makes me feel that how it would be if it is possible?

It says….

"venDi vennellalo veyi kalalu panDaali maaku "
---wish all my fairy dreams that my eyes are filled with become true :-)

"oDipovaali swardham ila marichi povaali yuddam
Maraname leni maanavuDe ee mahini nilavaali kalakaalam"
------ I want to see the world where there is no selfishness, no cheating, no war, no jealousy, no cruelty….but only happiness, happiness that makes a man live for ever and ever.

"Aaakale samasiponi amrutham pongiponi
Shanti shanti anu sangeetham intinTa paaDani prati nityam"

----yes, no one in the world should know the word hungry, wish every one has not only their stomach but heart fulfilled with the holiness of the amrutham…. Can I see that day; can I do some thing for this?

And the most wonderful words that make me listen to this song again and again, just write these words, feel, and dream them again and again….and yeah I cry on them again and again…..

"Manasane oka sampada prati manishilonu unDani
mamatale prati manasulo koluvunDani
manugaDe oka panDagai konasaagani!!"

-----Can we have the heart that shares only the pure love, the unmatched happiness, the cheerful ‘cheer’, the boundless affection, the mutual understanding, the shining smiles, the wonderful bliss and what not?

Wish a heart that -
Shares only the pure love,
Never gives you an unbearable pain,
Never leaves you alone,
Never makes you cry,
Never hurts your feelings,
Never misunderstands you,
Never make you experience the selfishness,
Never cheats you,
And most of all….never let you have unwiped tears!!

Can I ever have that kind of heart….can I ?
My fairy dream….will you be true ever?

The whole song goes like this!!
Kotta bangaaru lokam…maaku kaavali sontham ( wish I own a new golden world)
Gaali paaDali geetham…puDami kaavali swargam!!( the air sings songs, the world be like heaven)

JanTa nelavankalu unDe ningi kaavali maaku
venDi vennellalo veyi kalalu panDaali maaku
(wish we have the sky that has two moons, and in that shining moonlight, all my dreams should be fulfilled)

poovule noru terichi madhura raagalu nerchi
paaTale paaDukovaali…adi chusi ne pongi povaali
(the flowers learn sweet tunes and sing those songs, I listen to them and my heart fills with joy)


Manasane oka sampada prati manishilonu unDani
mamatale prati manasulo koluvunDani
manugaDe oka panDagai konasaagani!!
(Wishe every person has the wealth of good heart, the heart that is filled with love, the life should be lived ever as a festival)

oDipovaali swardham ila marichi povaali yuddam
Maraname leni maanavuDe ee mahini nilavaali kalakaalam
(The world should forget the war, the selfishness gets defeated, the world ever should be filled with humans who never die)

Aaakale samasiponi amrutham pongiponi
Shanti shanti anu sangeetham intinTa paaDani prati nityam
(No one should be left hungry, the world should be filled with elixir , only the peace should be playing her tunes in every home)

Vedane ika tolagani veDuke ika velagani
Yellela poraaTame ika teerani
yeNNaDu sukha shanti to ika batakani!!

(No more pains, only the celebrations, no more struggles and only the peace and prosperity always in every body’s life)

I am ending this with the same words again…..

“Manasane oka sampada prati manishilonu unDani
Mamatale prati manasulo koluvunDani
ManugaDe oka panDagai konasaagani”

View are not welcome, I don’t want to spoil my fairy dream :-)
Just kidding :-)
Sorry for my poor translation, but could not make it better :-(

P.S: I always feel disappointed that why this song was not written by Sirivennela :-(

The word 'Friend' and how I learnt it!!

If I don’t talk about ‘Friend’, its unfair to my blogging :-)

This word is not a separate entity for me, but is a part of me.
The magic the word did, the wonders it brought to me, the impact it has on me, everything is a never ending experience.

A little few years earlier, one of my friends during our then hand written letter conversations asked me – “Have you ever tried to stop and take a look of the time? Everything is so strange. U know how much I wish to unwind the time back!! Is it possible?
And a few months earlier I have tried to make it possible and shared with him.
And it made me to write this blog.

To begin with-how good were our childhood friendships?
The innocent worship towards the friendship and a friend was one of the more valuable things in life!!
Everything that a friend did looked great, we did not have any bounds to do anything for a friend because we did not have a logical thinking over there, just the faith in friendship.
The world then was filled with----
The sharing without which we never were happy to have something…
The sacrifice which was done just to see our friend happy, nothing else…
The smiles that were never fake….
The excitements that were same as ours….
The dreams that had no limits…..
The prayers that were unselfish…
The achievements that were not touched by jealousy…
The secrets that were kept unfolded till life time….
The heartfelt tears that were shed on our friend’s sadness…
The strong wish to meet the friend again on the next day….
…its an endless count!!
The friendships then did not need any explanation for anything we did, either hurt our friend or gave happiness.


If we are buddies still with those childhood fellows, we are lucky, we still have the same innocence.
I am double lucky….2 of my childhood friends are my best buddies till date :-)

A common quote that ever heard ‘People drift into each other’s life, friends are the ones who stay’.
Yes, friends are the ones who stay with you though they are not present.

My once best friend (as I thought in my 6th standard :-)) Madhavi, taught me how to dominate others when you know you are correct…..

My best buddy Uma (we share not only the same name, but many other things co-incidentally) taught me the “dare to do” nature and how to freak out even when you have strict boundaries around you…
My another precious friend Vamsi, who every time showed me a new angle of how a friend should be!!
Till date I am learning from him, the recent meeting with him 2 days back again taught a new lesson.
If I talk about him and his role in my life, the impact he has on me,I can talk days together…years together.
He patiently tolerated my irritations, my silly mistakes, my un matured thoughts, my stupid adventures, my innocent excitements, dangerous experiments ….he is still doing it.
He is my friend, guide, teacher, role model and what not?
He taught me – the hard work, the competition, the fun of learning, the bitter truths of life….and the list goes on!!

Then Prabha, with whom I just keep talking, talking and talking about life, philosophy, mindsets, ethics, morals,people…..
She taught me to have conviction towards anything we do, how to be stubborn, and yeah how to be conservative (ofcourse, I recently realized her ‘conservative’ thinking has crossed boundariesJ).
And if I keep saying….the list goes on….!!
Some friends taught me how I should be; some taught me how I should not be J
Everybody left their impacts, either, small or big, in my life, I am carrying them till now!!
Yes, Friends are the ones who stay!!
They are staying with me every day, every hour, every minute.

Now, after a long pause towards making friends and friendships….just started learning a new definition of friendship,a different taste of friendship with my little buddies Irfan, Prachi ,Rashmi….!!
They are very much younger to me….we have extremely different mindsets, attitudes,life styles, opinions…but the friendship is same:-)

I am learning from them too…this time from kids :-)
I am unwinding the time back!!

"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather is one of those things that give value to survival."